It’s scary how one person can suddenly make you happier than you’ve ever been.
Whenever I am upset, I shut down. I feel like I should be crying or screaming or something but I can't because I'm turned off. I go silent and don't talk very much. I just sit in my room; and think. And think. And think. Wanted to text my bestfriends, or maybe him; but I know no one really cares.
I am an overthinker. I hate it. I make a big deal out of the most simplest things. Create problems within my own head. Get all worked up over nothing. I wish I could just stop overthinking things; its only making things worse than it actually is. I need to learn how to stop overthinking the littlest things. But I just don't know how.
And there's only one thing that I can do; pray to Allah. And ask for His help.
Ya Allah, please guide me to let things go just because I know You know what's best for me. Please guide me to stop feeling insecure of losing people that I love. I know everyone will die, one day. So please guide me to love less all things in this world and start learning to love You more than I ever do now. Please make me stronger than I am now.
Ya Allah, I always wish that I will meet someone who could make me feel happy without even trying. And I am thankful for that You sent me him. But I know nothing lasts forever except for Your love for me. So please guide me to stop over-thinking about everything in this world.
Ya Allah, with no doubt - You have seen the worse side of me. And I am regret for whatever I've done in my past nor present. I am thankful for everything that You gave me - pain, tears, laugh, smile, heartache, joy etc. I learnt a lot from those things. And I know, You know best.
Ya Allah, I always pray that this friendship between me and him ends with both of us marrying each other. But like the Quran says - "But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.” [Quran 2:216].
I know that I can't hope too much. But I wont stop praying. I know Doa is the only thing that I can do to make it happen. Insyaallah.
Ya Allah I leave everything up to You. While I may know what I want, only You know what I need. You know what’s best for me and I trust that. So Ya Allah, I ask You to grant me what’s best for me and keep away that which will not benefit me.
Ya Allah, give me eyes that see the best in people, a heart that forgives the worst, a mind that forgets the bad, and a soul that never loses faith. No matter what happens, give me the heart that is willing to obey You whatever the cost may be.
Amin amin ya rabbal alamin.
" Shikin, just for once, be kind to your heart and stop worrying about the things which is out of your control. Let Allah handle them. Stop feeling insecure. Pray Shikin, it works. All the time. Allah is the best listener :') #Subhan' Allah."
" ... There's nobody like him anywhere at all. They could be better, but not exactly like him.. " - I whispered.
Assalamualaikum and Salam Maulidur Rasul friends - Allahumma solli 'ala Sayyidina Muhammad wa'ala aali Sayyidina Muhammad.
* Perfect your relationship with Allah, before you try looking for the perfect relationship with someone else :')