Changes And Leave.

Sometimes too much happiness can be frightening.
Because you know.
In reality, things end.

I'm tried of getting close to people, because when I thought they would always be here for me, they eventually leave. Cause you know what? Tragedies happen. What are you gonna do, give up? Quit? No. I realize now that when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure you’re still alive. Because you are. And that pain you feel? That’s life. Right?


And I don't think feelings change, nor people. I think situation do. I know that it's possible to dislike someone after loving them so much or to love someone after feeling so much hate towards them but, it's not because people change. It's because it's not the same.


It's because something made you think differently, something opened your eyes. Something caused you to see everything the way it is at last. It's like days. Days can be cloudy, or days can be sunny. Days don't change, the weather does. And nothing can play a part in that or fix it, they can just let it be.


And I learned that if you open your heart and close to someone, they're going to eventually try to stab you to death. Even the closest one to your heart. They might change to someone we barely know in a second.

I really hope things wont change. I could only pray to God that everything will remain the same. People that I love wont leave me, and feelings wont change either. Because I'm so tired of losing people that I love. I don't wanna go and meet new people and open my heart to love them. Because they eventually leave one day. And at the same time, I'm so tired of wanting what I can't have.

But I know, things happen for a reason. Right? But it would be so much better to know the reasons sometimes. Geez. Life can be so unfair sometimes, ey?



P/S : Don't easily assume that I'm talking about you. Because I'm not and I write this for public - General. But the things that I wrote above? The one that I don't wanna lose people that I love? Yeah, that one - I meant it.

I wasn't trying to make his life worse, but I was trying to make mine better.

*Dont take someone for granted just because you know everytime you push them away, they'd always come running back. Because one day, they wont. And don't make a permanent decision on a temporary feelings.


- I wont give up. Not until give up is the only choices left for me.